Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Happy Birthday Ryan
Wow, 22 years ago today. My husband and I tried for 2 years to get pregnant. We went to specialists, and had tests, and I kept records. It became very scientific, and mechanical. My poor hubby was under enthused after a few months. "Honey, it's a good time." "Baby can it wait until after the game?" It seemed as if he began to keep a mental record, and stayed clear of the bedroom. Yes, it put a strain on our marriage, because I was obsessed. When I asked him to get tested, oh my God! That was a direct challenged to his manhood. But, when the results said "the boys" were strong and capable, he was relieved and a little smug. He wanted a child also, but he was not over the moon about it. Until he laid eyes on Ryan. I was so sick right after the birth, that I stayed in the recovery room for 4 hours. He was the one to bond with our daughter. He gave her the first bath, and bottle. He spent that whole time with her. I was so jealous. It was so unfair, I should have been bonding, but, oh no, instead I was puking my guts out, and freezing to death. Anyway, all ended well. We only have the one, but she has been such a blessing. Truly Motherhood is the greatest gift in life.